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Disgusting Arrangement
02:46
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You’ll be inside my mind
Until it hits the ground
Drink this pesticide
As I’m deep in the ground
Remember this remember it
Disgusting arrangement x4
You’ll be inside my
Inside my mind
You’ll be there forever
Within this
Disgusting arrangement
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2. |
Trapped In A Tooth
07:36
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I’ve been in this jaw all my life
But they say bastard you know nothing
They say to clench your fist and shake it at the sky
But you really should do nothing
You’ll be stuck in a prison for hours each day
Fighting for your freedom to suffer
I would kick the legs out from under their throne
But I’m x4
Trapped in a tooth
And there’s no way out
You complain about the torture you’re given
But you just can’t find out the source
So you blame it on something random
Your self hatred still hasn’t ran it’s course
I’ve seen what that infantile mindset does to people
But you really couldn’t give a damn
A part of Hitler lodged deep inside you
Ready to blame your fellow man
I would be in the street burning this empire down
But you know I’m, know I’m x8
Trapped in a tooth
And there’s no way out
I know what must be done
But I’m afraid to say
There needs to be something new, a better way
I’ll break this jaw to break you free x3
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3. |
Epilogue
04:44
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Watching you limp
Like a half dead stray
It was simple
Why did you change it
Choke on this knife and realize
This name you knew was begotten
In an open fire that rages
Longer than our lives
You circle around my marrow
And hope for more time
What was meant
Inside
I tie you
In power lines
Dead wrists
We’re suspects
Embalmed sons
In helpless minds
Scars in iron eyes bewitch
My solar flare soaked belly
The dust that covers the earth
Gets washed out by your amber
I carry this torch
And replace its name with mine
Crawl
Fucking crawl (x8)
Warped dead skin like a leather scalpel
Forked tongues circle around me
A heart of gold could never beat
Grey smoke burns me at the stake
There’s no connection to what you know
A tether has shattered down the road
The bridge you made I jumped from
And from those depths I rise above
You prayed I failed
So you could control
There’s nothing left for me to give
I’ll let you write my epitaph
Born to drown
Spineless & suited
The story’s done
Chance my epilogue
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4. |
Counting To Zero
04:56
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Left alone with arrhythmia of your delta waves
Trapped in cages, I know you’re history you’re hollow
Disconnected side glance what your eyes follow
Stop talking I know it’s not natural
What it feels like, it’s just like quicksand
So quick to dig your teeth into my hands
Burning blood of a casket it’s in my home
Right now it’s time to count to zero
Six feet under my tunnel vision it’s near
Though your time is nil it’s so penetrable
Snow angel dragon dancing found us face down
Negative nothing it’s time now
Why do you desire to feel small like me?
Hubris crushed by the weight of defeat
Burning buildings as far as you can see
Angel ravaged by man’s eye clearly
I can’t speak
It’s so unnatural
Why let me breathe
Please god unfold (x2)
Feel this light i feel your eyes
Locked in skintight I know it’s right
I do this so my life gets controlled
Extend a glance then do drumrolls
Hard to speak but it’s even harder to give a fuck
Can’t articulate my way out of the serpents gut
Torn to shreds a glass eye is left standing
I’ll die before I get branded
Visions blur my eyes until it’s blinding
Decapitated to be released from this binding
My blood in the sand writes a message in your prose
I think now it’s time to count to zero
Why do you desire to feel small like me?
Hubris crushed by the weight of defeat
Burning buildings as far as you can see
Angel ravaged by man’s eye clearly
I can’t speak
It’s so unnatural
Why let me breathe
Please god unfold (x2)
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5. |
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02:00
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6. |
Catch The Bus
05:34
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In the darkest night
I find you there
Wishing something that wouldn’t change did
Clutching on for nothing what gives
Here’s a pillow if you fall down
Crutches for your wings if you need them
Burning passion that I’ve never found
Castaway, one spell I condemn
My souls been cauterized
Now remove my life
Why should I continue this drawn out sigh
Shoot my ashes into the sky
I’ve been waiting for way too long
Years ago I was done
Now distress sings my song
It feels like I’m the only one
A neck full of glass
On my corner step
I’ve been kept around under duress
Useless mind you can have it
I’m just way too far gone
It’s been that way for ever
Maybe if I catch it
It’ll be better
You better catch the bus, you better catch the bus, you better catch it x2
You gotta catch the bus, you gotta catch the bus, you gotta catch it x2
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7. |
Beyond Denial
03:48
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Moving so far
Beyond this nothing path
Been traveling since forever
All it’s done is crash
Shadows sneak across your wall
Open mouth full of arrows
Since we’re way far gone
We can stare at the crosshairs
Is it all the same
Or do you taste the blood air
Calling your name
As you thrash like a trapped bear
Is it all the same
Or do you taste the blood air
Coursing through my veins
Withered beyond denial
Life cycle’s been frozen
The stress of a character
Destruction of archetype
It’s becoming clearer
Crushed by machines
Empty status reached
In the state of eventually
Hope is downstream
Is it all the same
Or do you taste the blood air
Calling your name
As you thrash like a trapped bear
Is it all the same
Or do you taste the blood air
Coursing through my veins
Withered beyond denial
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8. |
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I saw the grey smoke rise out of your fingertips
The familiar candle scent engages in brute force ecstasis
Like dissolved closed caskets partaking in brutal exodus
You’ll find the beautiful body torture & something brighter than your skyline
The skin of a soul attached to a clothesline
Grieve your contempt and breath in the confusing alchemy
Just don’t attach yourself
Why so frail?
Did you love the crash?
Why so frail?
The gold was chosen
Why so frail?
Did your sides fall?
Why so frail?
The pain so strong
The bright screeching whispers torture me x2
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9. |
Mirrors
06:00
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Watching from the tower
The eyes become sober
In the amber, I rest until
Summer ends your minds will
Do not relate
You know someone’s watching
Outside my normal state
A mirror stares into the sky
Hissing fans corner me
Burning while I sleep
Sounds awry I’m too gone
What’s been lost can’t be found
Unless the sun sets
We’re distilled in unrest
Book full of epitaphs
A full body skin graft
Blood spilled in the carpet
I know it’s been started
Cross my eyes beyond the line
And hope for more time
Do not relate
You know someone’s watching
Outside my normal state
A mirror stares into the sky
Hissing fans corner me
Burning while I sleep
Sounds awry I’m too gone
What’s been lost can’t be found
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10. |
?
02:33
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Found deep inside you
I watched you drown
When the scent was missed
Dressed in rusted gowns
And I waited
Years for this moment
Your blood covers the sky now
As your eyes watch from my palm
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11. |
Same Scent
04:39
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My eyes were resting on the pavement, chalk drawings of a scene to create, little nettles cover me, in your room sized belly I’ve come to be unborn
What I see in a field of fire
Struck down at the mirrors edge
You wrote it in the snow with your blood
Tearing cells the moment I could
God knows how long this fires been burning
But a sea of contempt keeps putting it out
In a split second it could all be over
Other wise the tables have turned
We drink the witches blood
Your wet skin hits the ground hard
Tied in cables, this bondage is payment
Cursed with having the same scent
Reasons unsolved, motive beyond knowledge
All I know is that I gotta stop it
Atrophied from all the misuse
Pleasure seeking is the truest abuse
I fell down
Fell down to the rivers edge
Haunted in the same way
You know I couldn’t face it
I wanna feel like I’m out of time
It’s been so long since I’ve almost died
Hammer to my skull the softest impact
Unborn with my sanity intact
Keep screaming until we’re all sick
No pain just love on my wrist
Zero notes, my headspace aborted
Don’t leave until it’s all sorted
The scabs of life cover my knuckles
Exit wounds are back in style
I met the slayer at your birthday party
The last moment will be spent laughing
Sun cycles are spent indoors
It’s just a story but it’s all I know
Wrestled fools into the ground
The ride won’t stop until we’re sober
We drink the witches blood
Your wet skin hits the ground hard
Tied in cables, this bondage is payment
Cursed with having the same scent
Reasons unsolved, motive beyond knowledge
All I know is that I gotta stop it
Atrophied from all the misuse
Pleasure seeking is the truest abuse
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12. |
Stars Kneel
05:17
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I’ve been born dead, and I can’t stop
Break the lights above, destroy my brain
You scared me, where are my pills at
Organs spill, it’s so orgasmic
My blood’s alive, release it
Locked in the spiral stairs, I’m not even
I need to be drowned
I want you to drown me
I need to be killed
I want you to kill me
I really was too far gone
But don’t try to save me
I’ve seen the stars kneel
Do you want to watch them with me?
The days are gone I feel
Like the massive clouds I see x2
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13. |
The Mind Controller
17:23
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Doors
Doors open to something
I can’t comprehend now
But the scene has set
Death from
Fallen graces
Beyond this I rise now
It’s so beyond nothing
And we’ve all been
Thrown into the sea
Brand the name in time
Carved with the sharpest knife
I feel my veins freezing
As this world dissolves
This timeline has been absolved
From what I won’t admit
Head full of nothing
But it won’t quit
I’d wanna stop it
But I’d be useless
This room floods with chloroform
The screech of pain goes away
I’ll make sure to count my blessings
To the mind controller
I know the mind controller
I feel it’s pure grace
Fix this disturbance
And numb the pain
Bring me the solvent
I just met the shadow man
Red choirs dance in my head
As I break away
I know the mind controller
I feel it’s pure grace
Fix this disturbance
And numb the pain
I thought it was beyond denial
I thought I saw the stars kneel
Forever trapped in this toxic waste
This garbage is my special place
My breath is anonymous
The taste of everything at once
Found dead behind the clock tower
With a jawline full of radium
The snake oil looked & tasted like water
It dripped from the leaves of the giving tree
I lay in my ashes
As I’m enveloped in the jimsonweed
Before I forget how the time passed on
I’ll let you carve my sigil in my spine
It’ll be so beautiful
This mess is so fucking divine
A thousand swords fell from the night sky
Into the laps of the parasites
I finally met ends meet
This coil tied by your hands
You know I got too close to the shadow
Fly on the wall I look down on you
They caught you walking in the meadow
I said that’s what I do
We all just pulled down to the pavement
In my mind I look back at the arrangement
Never knew I’d be so close to the payment
Death in my head you know I’ve seen it
I told you now
I found out
It’s all bloody now
The heart echos twice more
Until I find the fabric
Just leave my shoes at the door
Fuck fuck fuck fuck
Again x8
I’m at the end of the cycle
The gatekeeper passes me through
As I travel onward
I’m born anew
I know the mind controller
I feel it’s pure grace
Fix this disturbance
And numb the pain x8
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